Yearning

Is that you calling from afar?
Or is it just your memory?
I miss the sound of your voice
So bad, it burns inside of me.

Is that your voice on the air?
Or is it just the wind?
I miss your soothing comfort
So bad, that I scream for it.

Is that you dancing over there?
Or is it a mirage that I see?
I miss the look on your face
So bad, that I curse my eyes.

Is that you smiling at me?
Or is it for someone else?
I miss that adorable beaming face
So bad, that I smile no more.

Is that you sitting there alone?
Or is it that you wait for me?
I miss our conversations, my love
So bad, that I just cant breathe.

Intizaar

Tumhein roka is kashmakash ne,
Dil ne kya tha kaha?
Ishq se labrez yeh qalb hamatan-gosh hai,
Labon se tu ne kyun na kaha?

Jin ke saharay ishq tha seekha,
Un se kya tha kaha?
Batao muhabbat kya hai; janab,
Khaaksaar se kyun na kaha?

Kaantay jab chubbhay thay tumhein,
Phoolon se kya tha kaha?
Aansoo aye thay jab teri aankhon mein,
Ponchney ko hum se kyun na kaha?

Aaj ke jab tera intizaar hai, mehboob,
Pehli shab tu ne kya tha kaha?
Naheen thay hum gar wafadar,
Yeh gila hum se kyun na kaha?

Taa qayamat rahay gi meri mohabbat,
Tujh se main kya tha kaha?
Mere khwabon ki taabeer hai tu,
Iss se pehle yeh tujh se kyun na kaha?

Oorhni

I picture you wearing only that scarf,
Made of naught but moonlight;
Is it material that guards our bodies?
Or is it just man's mere sight?

I picture you wearing a frown,
Do not look upon me, it proclaims.
Can I really see what you fear?
Or is your heart just full of shame?

I picture you wearing a smile,
A lie it is, so clear;
Isn't it too easy today, my love?
Changing a curse to a sneer?

I picture you wearing black,
Suffered, you surely have not;
Weren't you the benefactor of pain, my love?
Wasn't hatred all that I got?

I picture you wearing the crown,
Feast on the cadaver of your only love;
How many more shall you devour?
Should man stop beleiving in true love?

I picture you wearing nothing,
Born in a brothel, was it not you?
Where are all the admirers now, my love?
Save the beasts who lust for you?

Janam Din

Today, I commemorate the sacrifices
That I myself have made to date;
You may call me selfish or just full of myself,
But is that what I'm here to debate?

Today, I remember those days
When we were all relaxed and carefree;
You may have forgotten, my friends,
But those memories are to death, with me.

Today, I acknowledge your presence
Yes, you've been there, I know;
You were there, true, but
Only for you to show.

Today, I realize the truth
To which I've been blind to;
You, who put the blindfold on my eyes,
Shall, InshAllah, be blinded once too.

Today, I put an end to this life
Of being helpful and caring;
You will resent your actions later,
For I have paid gravely for my forebearing.

Today, I stand on the edge
Of understanding and denial;
You may use me no more, my "friends",
I am no more a child.

Happy Birthday to Me.
Thanks Usmani, Mahnoor, Masood, Aun, Mustapha, Aneeb, Hasan, Saif, Zahra, Nazuk, Feeza, Murty, Umar...loved it.

Baghaavat

You cannot say you dont love me,
No, you just can't.

You cannot raise your hand and strike me,
Even if you must, you just cant.

You cannot say that you dont need me,
Dont deny it, because you cant.

You cannot supress whats inside me,
You may try, but you cant.

You cannot kill my emotions,
Logic won't work here, it cant.

You cannot keep it a secret,
I'll not let it be one, I cant.

You cannot hide forever,
Behind your liqour, you just cant.

You cannot face the angels,
They shun you, so you cant.

You cannot stop me from praying,
I pray for you, so you cant.

You cannot be all pretentious,
And expect me not to be, you cant.

You cannot be all-knowing,
No man can know all; you cant!

You cannot really be who you are,
I have faith in you still, you cant.

You cannot expect me to love you still,
Trust me, you cant.

You cannot begin to imagine,
My life with you, you cant.

You cannot even dream of,
Making me feel happy, you just cant.

You cannot hug or kiss,
To subdue the pain, you cant.

You cannot even say soft words,
To distract me from it, you cant.

You cannot be what you should be,
Its what I hope for, but you cant.

You cannot even appreciate,
The respect that you command, you cant.

You cannot even remember,
My first walk or word, you cant.

You cannot ignore my pleading,
Listen! You cant.

You cannot overlook my care for you,
Then again, you just cant.

You cannot take me for granted, though,
I wont allow it, so you cant.

You cannot bear what is within me,
Take a hint, dad, you just cant.

Moi?

Disorder Rating

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Life

Life's a charade
Questions that need answering
Answers...that are omnipresent
But which of them need answering?

Life's a game
Players it has many
Plays are also plenty
But playing isn't the role of many.

Life's a stage
Mere puppets we are
God's the puppeteer
Without strings, nothing more, we are.

Life's a bitch
And then we die
Tell me, my friend...
Why do we, live a lie?

Affection

The sparkle in your eyes
The twitch of your lips
The touch of your hand
That bend of the hips

The softness of your hijaab
The crudeness of your style
The smell of your hair
That flowed like the Nile

The panic in your voice
The passion in your kiss
The wetness of your tongue
That face that I miss

Its not just this, believe me
To you, theres a lot more.
I love you more than you know
I just hope you know that for sure.

Hope

Is this insanity? Are we crazy?
Have you any clue how I feel inside?
The passion burns forever more;
And the pain does not subside.

Can we again gaze upon the stars?
And forget about kith or kin?
Let us share our passion
Like once we shared skin

Or should I give up and move on?
Is it there is no hope at all?
Cold they have all become,
Summer, Spring, Winter and Fall.

Will you dazzle me once more?
With your ever-lasting smile?
Perhaps it shall, for now,
Make the wait worthwhile.

Do you even wonder?
Or ever think where I may be?
Dark corridors are all I tread now;
Wondering of who, but thee.

So is love omnipresent?
Does it not ever end?
I guess, so is sorrow then;
Which is all there is at the end.

Sitam

Woh pyaar to na paa sakay
Jis ke liye taraptay thay hum
Tu ne haath chhura liya to kya?
Bhool gaye mujhe tere sitam?

Jab milay thay pehli baar
Tere nainon mein kho gaye thay hum
Teri awaaz ko sanson mein bharnay lagay
Tere kehkahay hi dhar gaye woh sitam.

Samajh mein na aye yeh baat
Kis raah par chal rahay thay hum
Dar-ba-dar us andheray mein
Sehtay rahay tere sitam.

Dost tha main? Ya woh bhi naheen?
Teri nazron mein kya reh gaye thay hum?
Pyaar naheen to naa sahi,
Dhaye mujh pe kyun woh sitam?

Aur aaj, jabke hum sadaa rahein ge judaa
Waqt...yeh din aur raat...kaise guzarein ge hum?
Pyaar ke siwa diya kya tha tujhe main ne?
Badlay mein jis ke milay tere sitam.

Apne hi saye mein chhup ke
Tere bin bhi jeena seekh lein ge hum;
Par dua hai meri tujhe phhir bhi
Jaise bhi thay tere sitam.

Khush?

Kho bhi jaaoon tere nainon mein
Meri chahat to adhoori rahay gi
Jab bhi tanhayee ka aalam ho
Awaaz teri phhir goonj utthay gi

Gird-o-nawah ki is bheer mein
Meri rooh tujhe pukarti hai
Kis mor pe khara hai tu?
Teri manzil tujhe pukarti hai

Aankhein num to hain, dil hai afsurda
Teri yaad mein kitna hum peetay hain
Tu kya jaanay, kaise hum roz
Ghut ghut kar yeh zindagi jeetay hain

Tujh se baat karne ka
Mauqa bhi to naheen
Teri ek jhalak hi hai mere paas
Aur kuchh bhi to naheen

Waah Re Kebab Teri Kismat

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results Warmth |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Emotional Stability ||||||||| 22% Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||| 50% Liveliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||| 58% Social Assertiveness |||||||||||| 34% Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||| 54% Abstractness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Introversion ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Independence |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Tension ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%

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Aao Twist Karein

Tum saamne hi rehna
Waheen baithi raho
Jahan se tumharay yeh geelay hont
Dekhte hue meri palkein jam jayen

Samay tham jaye
Duniya bhi ruknay lagay
Teri un aankhon mein
Mere yeh nain kho jayen

Tum haso to sahi
Muskurao, aur bas kuchh na kaho
Aankhon ki yeh baatein
Kaheen lab na keh jayen

Zulfein hain jo teri
Meri puri duniya samaytay hain
Aao mere saath, ke hum un
Mohabbat ki vaadiyon mein gum jayen

Aur aazmayesh na lena
Tera apna hi hoon, ab sitam chhoro bhi
Hasrat meri hai yehi
Ek doosray mein bas sama jayen...