Sab Bakwaas Hai

Incomplete

2008-10-19T11:36:00.000-07:00

I see you every day from afar,
A daunting moment, when you hide;
Your subtle walk, your coy smile,
And your hair placed delicately on one side.

I keep praying that fate crosses our paths,
And one day we come face to face;
We gaze into each others eyes
And our hearts begin to race.

Aisa kyun hai?

2008-09-22T12:02:00.000-07:00

Tum aye nahi iss baar, aisa kyun hai

Mere ashq abhi talaq num hain, aisa kyun hai

Dil mein jahan basaya tha tumhein maine

Wahan ab ik khalish hai, aisa kyun hai.

Jahan ab bhi soya hai, aisa kyun hai

Phhir bhi dil abhi roya hai, aisa kyun hai

Tere aane so jo hota tha samaa

Ab jag waisa nahi, aisa kyun hai.

Taqdeer nahi meri saathi, aisa kyun hai

Bahaar phhir nahi hai aati, aisa kyun hai

Jo baatein roz hum kiya karte the

Sab teri yaad hain dilati, aisa kyun hai.

In patharon mein khudaa nahi hai, aisa kyun hai

Rooh jism ka hai qaidi, aisa kyun hai

Arsh pe baitha woh banane waala

Chup chaap baitha hai, aisa kyun hai.

Jeet ke bhi haara main, aisa kyun hai

Bana apna hi sahara main, aisa kyun hai

Jis duniya ke liye khwab sajaye the hum ne

Wahan pyar ki bhi boli lagti hai, aisa kyun hai.

Aao ge bhi to laut jao ge, aisa kyun hai

Manaoon ga, phhir rooth jao ge, aisa kyun hai

Chala hoon uss raah par jo kathhin hai bohat

Par iss raah mein akela hoon, aisa kyun hai.

When?

2008-09-19T14:25:00.000-07:00

September rain lashes against the window

A cup of hot tea goes cold in the waiting

For you are caught in the storm outside

And I sit here, with my thoughts, contemplating.

I know not what resides in your heart

And you know not what rests in mine

Unlike the eye of the strom you are in

All my heart does is pine.

True, you may be hurt and lost

Wandering a lone street or glen

When shall you return, I ask

When shall I be whole again?

Love.

2008-08-15T12:45:00.000-07:00

Love is patient, love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered, It keeps no record of wrongs,
It does not take offense and is not resentful.

Love does not delight in evil,
But rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
Always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
Hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.

Love never fails.

-Corinthians 13:4-8

...

2008-03-17T00:35:00.001-07:00

I miss you...like the deserts miss the rain.

Dil Hi Dil Mein

2008-02-09T13:18:00.000-08:00

Tere roop ki sharaab
Aankhon se peetay hain
Sachay mae-kash to
Aise hi hotay hain
Imtihaan hum, pyaar ka de ke
Raah dekhein, kya hai nateeja.

Ae naazneen suno na
Humein tum pe haq to do na
Chahay to jaan lo na
Ke dekha tumhein to hosh urr gaye
Hont jaise khud hi sill gaye.

-OST Dil Hi Dil Mein

She

2008-01-18T12:52:00.000-08:00

With hair that smells so great,
And eyes that shine in the night;

With a smile that draws you in,
And a body, just the perfect height.

With a voice that puts Lata to shame,
And the warmth of the brightest star;

With the simplicity of the color white,
And the depth of the galaxies afar.

With finger tips that burn at a touch,
And breath, oh so sweet;

With those little 'chutkis' on her head,
And silver 'khussas' beneath her feet.

With cheeks that turn the brightest of reds,
And a neck very sensitive to touch;

With a desire to be someone great,
And a sense of when to say no, thank you very much.

With a walk that speaks of grace,
And a jump that doesn't go very high;

With a sneeze that stops your heartbeat,
And in that moment, an eternity passes by.

With a soul not from this world,
And a heart with all the love it can hold;

With a flair to be who she is,
And beauty that was in prophecies foretold.

What would you do, my friend,
If you met a girl like her?

Would you be a fool and walk on by?
Would you not fall in love with her?

Kaho

2007-11-07T10:55:00.000-08:00

Jo hum keh dein ke humein mohabbat hai tum se,
Kaho kya jawab do ge?
Hum jo keh dein woh baatein saari,
Jo chhupa ke rakhi thi khud se bhi ab talak hum ne,
Woh rakhar dil-e-betaab,
Jis ka chhupna meri aankhon mein ab mumkin nahi mazeed,
To bolo na, kya jawab do ge?
Jo bata doon ke har lamha bin tere jo guzarta hai,
Mujhe achha nahi lagta;
Sach maano ke ab tum bin,
Kuchh bhala nahi lagta;
Phhoolon ka khilna bhi jaise mann ko nahi jachta;
Rang jitne bhi phhailay hain,
Koi bhi apna nahi lagta;
Jo keh doon ke woh ik shakhs,
Meri duniya hai rangeen jis se,
Tum ho,
To kya jawab do ge?
Jo keh main ye doon tum se,
Ke rooh ban ke tum ab mujh mein,
Utar se gaye ho,
Khushboo ki manind,
Meri saanson mein,
Bikhar se gaye ho,
Meri baaton mein, khwabon mein, haseen subho ke ujalon mein,
Meri hasti ki khalaon mein bhar se gaye ho,
Main keh doon agar tum se,
Ke ab to aksar main,
Khud se bhi anjan ho kar,
Jis ki soch mein rehta hoon,
Woh dil nasheen mojza tum ho,
Kya jawab do ge?
Jo kisi khat mein main tum ko,
Apna dil yeh likh bhejoon,
Iss dil-e-nadaan ki hasrat yeh likh bhejoon,
Yaa itne faaslay par bhi jo hai qayem,
Woh qurbat likh bhejoon,
Kaho kya jawab do ge?
Kaho, kya jawab do ge?

-Unknown

Na ho

2007-10-27T15:47:00.000-07:00

Shab dhalti nahi hai jab talak,
Sanam tum se baat na ho;

Woh chand na ho, woh taray na hon,
Sanam tum se mulaqat na ho.

Ishq hota nahi hai jab talak,
Sanam poora irada na ho;

Woh alfaz na hon, woh geet na hon,
Sanam kal ka waada na ho.

Try

2007-10-27T15:04:00.000-07:00

You could try to run away,
Or hide behind a mask;

Pretend that it's not there,
About love, you dare not ask.

You may be far away from me,
But at least, you are mine, I know;

And in your heart, there is only me,
Even though you may not let it show.

My Own.

2007-10-06T09:44:00.000-07:00

You are to me,
Not short of a godsend;
You are to me,
My own, to keep.

By day I count the seconds,
And by night, it is the stars;
Adrift in thoughts of you, which are,
My own, to keep.

I long for you, though far away,
Not once do I think different;
A glimpse of you, priceless, and,
My own, to keep.

My patience is tested,
With every lie you speak; but,
Every promise is true with me, and,
My own, to keep.

We may not be one,
I may not be whole;
But the hope of that is,
My own, to keep.

As matter collides with it's inverse,
Our union too, would be unique;
Touch me once, and that caress will be forever,
My own, to keep.

So be the godsend, and be my light,
Be who you are meant to be;
Love me back, so you become, my one,
My own, to keep.

Telephone Pyaar

2007-08-27T12:49:00.000-07:00

I wait with bated breath,
And every second, I count;
Till that little screen lights up,
And chimes just the right amount.

Leaving everything aside,
I jump towards my telephone;
And dial the rythemic number,
Praying that no one's at home.

We talk for hours, and,
Hours at end;
Dreams engulf me,
Without sleep or end.

When finally the sun rises,
And yawns space each line we say;
She bids me farewell with such affection,
Each syllable makes me sway.

As soon as the cradle is back in it's home,
I long for just a moment more;
A minute? An hour?
Maybe two, maybe four.

For however long we talk,
There is a fact, which holds true;
Whenever I do not hear your voice,
I swear, every inch of me misses you.

Kaash

2007-08-12T10:37:00.000-07:00

Kaash tum se mil ke yeh
Nigaahon ke hon silsilay
Tum hi tum ho saamnay
Na doosra koi rahey

Tanha thay hum
Tanha tum thay
Tanha thay saaray lamhay

Bas itni
Hai khwahish dil ki
Kashmokash na rukay

Socha tha

2007-08-06T13:51:00.000-07:00

Aaina dekh ke bole yeh sanwarne wale
Ab to be-maut marenge mere marne wale

Dekhke tumko hosh mein aana bhool gaye
Yaad rahe tum aur zamaana bhool gaye

Jab saamne tum
Jab saamne tum, aa jaate ho
Kya jaaniye kya ho jaata hai
Kuchh mil jaata hai, kuchh kho jaata hai
Kya jaaniye kya ho jaata hai

Chaaha tha yeh kahenge
Socha tha socha tha woh kahenge
Aaye woh saamne to, kuchh bhi na keh sake
Bas dekha kiye unhein ham

Dekh kar tujhko yakeen hota hai
Dekh kar tujhko yakeen hota hai
Koi itna bhi haseen hota hai
Dekh paate hain kahan ham tumko dil kahin hosh kahin hota hai

Jab saamne tum
Ho jab saamne tum, aa jaate ho
Kya jaaniye kya ho jaata hai
Kuchh mil jaata hai, kuchh kho jaata hai
Kya jaaniye kya ho jaata hai

Aa kar chale na jaana, aise nahin sataana
De kar hansi labon ko, aankhon ko mar rulaana
Dena na beqaraari dil ka karaar ban ke
Yaadon mein kho na jaana tum intezaar ban ke, intezar ban ke

Bhool kar tumko na jee payenge
Bhool kar tumko na jee payenge
Saath tum hogi jahan jayenge
Ham koi waqt nahin hain hamdam
Jab bulaaoge chale aayenge

Jab saamne tum
Haa haa jab saamne tum, aa jaate ho
Kya jaaniye kya ho jaata hai
Kuchh mil jaata hai, kuchh kho jaata hai
Kya jaaniye kya ho jaata hai

...

2007-08-03T15:29:00.000-07:00

You walked away,
And left in your place,
A pain so great.

You walked away.
You walked away.
You walked away.

How could you?

I love you.

I will love you.
Always and Forever.

The Stranger

2007-06-05T12:15:00.000-07:00

Water drips in the distance,
The insects wiggle afar;
I lie here half-awake, yet self-aware.

He calously calls out to me,
'You're a fool!', he says;
I lie here in misery, yet numb to pain.

The wind chimes are silent,
The moon is eclipsed;
I lie here in darkness, yet there is light.

He again roars in my ears,
'She's a liar!', he says;
I lie here in disbelief, yet there is deceit.

The vultures knaw at the old flesh,
Thrown out when new skin is found;
I lie here naked, yet I do not feel ashamed.

He now whispers to me,
'No one cares about you', he says;
I lie here waiting, yet she does not come.

The voice seems familiar,
'Who could it be?', I ponder;
I lie here questioning myself, yet there is no answer.

Could it be a stranger?
Or someone close to me?
I lie here afraid, yet curiosity gets the best of me.

My limbs betray me,
As did my mind so long ago;
I lie here helpless, yet I long to see the stranger.

But then he lifts the curtain himself,
And I come face to face with him;
I lie here bewildered, yet I see a familiar face.

It is me, myself, I,
The stranger is me;
I lie here torn apart, yet I am whole.

The jeers continue,
And the taunts don't end;
I lie here listening, yet I wish I were deaf.

The stranger, or my other half,
Sits there with a smile;
I lie here hurting now, yet only for a while.

The vultures seem to be a better end,
For they knaw only at flesh;
I lie here with my soul violated, yet I have no choice.

For eternity, the stranger plagues me,
No one else understands his words;
I lie here without wings, yet the vultures fly away.

Not Anymore

2007-04-26T13:54:00.000-07:00

I'll go blind, I'll go numb,
Hurt till everything's sore;
But I promise, from this day,
I just won't care any more.

Worlds Apart

2007-04-23T12:13:00.000-07:00

I am the dust beneath your feet,
And you, the brightest star in the sky;
I am lying here helpless and weak,
While you shine up above, so high.

In every grain, in every speck,
There is a feeling in my heart;
Where love resides, nothing else,
But we are two worlds apart.

Heed my prayers, listen to my pleas,
Do not ignore my call;
We have the chance to meet midway,
Yet you wont have to fall.

Maybe I expect too much,
But even a grain of dust can aspire;
Can we not be together?
Is it not what you desire?

And so this bit of dust swears,
Lest this love drives him mad;
That he shall cherish you, oh heavenly being,
And live the dreams that he had.

Kadi Kadi

2007-04-14T08:15:00.000-07:00

Kujj unj wee raawaan aukhian sann
Kujj gal ich gham da tauq we see
Kujj shehr de lok we zaalim sann
Kujj saanun maarran da shauq we see

-Unknown

Maahi

2007-04-10T14:48:00.000-07:00

Maahi aave ga
Maahi aave ga
Maahi aave ga main phhulaan naal dharti sajawaan gi
Oonu dil walay ranglay palang te bithawaan gi
Jhallaan gi pakhhiaan
Fer bara kujj kain giyaan akhian
Jhallaan gi pakhhiaan
Fer bara kujj kain giyaan akhian

Maahi aave ga main phhulaan naal dharti sajawaan gi
Oonu dil walay ranglay palang te bithawaan gi
Jhallaan gi pakhhiaan
Fer bara kujj kain giyaan akhian

Aje sochni aan ki ki gal kehni eh
Aje sochni aan
Aje sochni aan ki ki gal kehni eh
Ohne takna te hosh kadon rehni eh
Kund kad ke
Kund kad ke main aape sharmawan gi
Tujhe kehndi kehndi chup kar jawaan gi
Jhallaan gi pakhhiyaan
Fer bara kujj kain giyaan akhian
Jhallaan gi pakhhiyaan
Fer bara kujj kain giyaan akhian

Maahi aave ga main phhulaan naal dharti sajawaan gi

Hath jor ke main oonu samjhawan gi
Hath jor ke main
Hath jor ke main oonu samjhawan gi
Mukh moray ga te thaan mar jawan gi
Mere pyaar diyaan
Mere pyaar diyaan qasmaan khaaway ga
Dil hauli hauli dub dub jaaway ga
Jhallaan gi pakhhiaan
Fer bara kuj kain giyaan akhian
Jhallaan gi pakhhiaan
Fer bara kuj kain giyaan akhian

Maahi aave ga
Maahi aave ga
Maahi aave ga main phhullaan naal dharti sajawan gi
Oohnu dil walay ranglay palang te bithaawan gi
Jhallaan gi pakhhiaan
Fer bara kujj kain giyaan akhian
Jhallaan gi pakhhiaan
Fer bara kujj kain giyaan akhian

-Mahi Aave Ga (Shazia Manzoor)

I never paid attention to this song, but I finally did one night while driving home and it was on the radio...loved it.

Whole New World

2007-03-15T12:53:00.000-07:00

Come to me, and I'll show you a world
With purple skies and amber rain;

A world with us and no one else,
No tears, no sorrow, no pain.

A world where you will be the moon,
And the sun that lights my sky;

A world where the winds will sing to us,
When in the evening we shall sip chai.

A world where you and I will dance,
And sing to each other, songs of love;

A world in which I'll feed you cake,
And oranges too, there'll be plenty of.

A world where you will smile, and I
Will hold that moment forever;

A world where we shall stop time,
And yet, grow old togethor.

A world with fancy mirrors in our bedroom,
And a castle oh-so-grand;

A world where there will be dark alleys,
Where you'd ask me to hold your hand.

So come to me, and I'll show you a world
With purple skies and amber rain;

A world where I will love you forever,
And give you no sorrow and no pain.

Lala

2007-03-10T11:02:00.000-08:00

Hey you! Yeah, you there,
Lets gaze upon the stars in the sky;

Remember when we saw the moon togethor?
And the shooting stars flying by?

Come, lets run across the meadows,
Where the tulips can kiss our skin;

Is there any such place, oh love,
Where, in our thoughts, we haven't been?

Then let me hold your quivering hand,
So I may guide you to the light;

And baby, let me kiss you now,
That our hearts may take flight.

Guiding Light

2007-02-28T11:21:00.000-08:00

Are you able to see,
The love that I have for you?

A love so great, a love so pure,
Love that's oh so true?

We'll walk togethor in our thoughts,
Like we did when we hadn't met;

I'll hold your hand and get close to you,
The distance will remain yet.

If the darkness scares you, I shall
Light the sky with my love;

The beetle will sing, the owl shall hoot,
All wishing us 'mazal tov'!

I will give you a push,
When we'll sit on the swings;

The chains will squeak,
As we will go back and forth, like wings.

At last, when you will have to leave,
'Stay a little longer', I will implore;

You'll flick your hair and bat your eyelids,
And I'll melt at the sight I adore.

I'll bid you farewell, for another night
When through the park we shall stroll;

The beetle, the owl and the swings will wait,
Till the next time love takes it's toll.

Chhor Aya

2007-02-27T13:27:00.000-08:00

Jab uss ki zulf mein pehla safaid baal aya,
Tab uss ko pehli mulaqat ka khayal aya;

Phhir aaj uss ne bohat berukhi dikhayi mujhe,
Woh, goya, shehr se bahar mujhe nikaal aya;

Guzar sakay na kabhi tere hijr ke shab-o-roz,
Na din dhala, na kabhi raat ko zawaal aya;

Zara si der mein khali hui meri aankhein,
Main apne ashq tere raaste mein daal aya;

Woh jis ka zikr hum inti khushi se karte hain,
Wohi tou umr mein sabhi se udaas saal aya;

Bohat dinon se main zindon mein tha na murdon mein,
Ghazal hui tou mere dasht mein ghazaal aya.

-Shahzad Ahmed

Sign

2006-12-22T04:36:00.000-08:00

I may well be the calming oasis in the desert of your confusion.

If only you would realize that.

Doori

2006-11-07T11:19:00.000-08:00

Dah-e-hasti ko saada kar liya hai,
Judaai ka iraada kar liya hai.
Kabhi saath mein jo dekhte they,
Woh poora chaand aadha kar liya hai.
Humein rehna hai ab tanhayion mein,
Mohabbat ko zyada kar liya hai.

-Unknown.

Void

2006-09-04T16:06:00.000-07:00

There is lack of love in your hearts; I see it all the time.
There is evil all around us; You do it all the time.

Existence

2006-06-28T15:04:00.000-07:00

Na tha kuchh tou, Khuda tha.
Kuchh na hota tou, Khuda hota.
Duboya mujh ko, honay ne.
Na hota main, tou kya hota?

-Assadullah Khan Ghalib

I Miss You

2006-06-27T15:56:00.000-07:00

Maikaday band karein, laakh zamanay walay
Shehr mein kam nahi hain, aankhon se pilanay walay.

-Maikade (Hariharan)

Lagan laagi tum se man ki lagan
Lagan laagi tum se man ki lagan
Gali gali ghoomein
Dil tujhe dhoonde
Tere bin tarse nayen
Aa ja o meri jaan
Mere dil ka jahaan
Maange teri khabar
Dhoonde tera nishaan
Laagi tum se man ki lagan
Lagan laagi tum se man ki lagan

-Man ki lagan (OST: Paap)

Tujhe dekh dekh sona
Tujhe dekh kar hai jagna
Maine yeh zindagaani
Sang tere bitaani
Tujh mein basi hai meri jaan
Jiyaa dharak dharak, jiyaa dharak dharak jaye
Jiyaa dharak dharak, jiyaa dharak dharak jaye
Kab se hain dil mein mere
Armaan kayee unkahay
In ko tu sun le aaja
Chahat ke rang charha jaa
Kehna kabhi tou mera maan haye
Jiyaa dharak dharak, jiyaa dharak dharak jaye
Jiyaa dharak dharak, jiyaa dharak dharak jaye

-Tujhe Dekh Dekh (OST: Kalyug)

Without You

2006-06-23T16:33:00.000-07:00

Ishq junoon jab hadd se barh jaye
Hastay hastay aashiq sooli charh jaye

Ishq ka jaado sar charh kar bolay
Khoob laga lo pehray, rastay Rab kholay

Yehi ishq di marzi hai, yehi Rab di marzi hai
Tere bin jeena kaisa, haan khudgharzi hai

Tere naam se jee loon
Tere naam se mar jaoon

-Kailash Kher

Divergence

2006-06-02T04:09:00.000-07:00

'Tere rang rang, tere rang rang;
Tere rang rang, tere rang rang,
Har soo, har jaa;
Har soo, har jaa.
Main jahan bhi jaaon duniya mein
Tere jalway mere sang sang.'

Abrar's amazing voice and these undeniable facts of our existence start of one of the best songs (and his favorite) that he has ever sung. His bout with Sufi-ism is no where close to Junoon's, yet with this particular rendition, he has outdone himself. Though its quite an old track; recorded around 2000, it was never picturized and thus never really gained any popularity, unlike other catchy hits like 'Nach Punjaban' and 'Billo'. His crisp voice, when he starts off with these lyrics, induces within me the truth of what he is singing about. The existence of Allah The Almighty (or merely God for those of you who dont share my beliefs) itself speaks to me, and in essence I stare into the expanse of this world and see, without actually seeing, that He does exists; all around us, within us.

'Tu ne ataa kiya,
Maine bhula diya.
Tu ne phhir se diya,
Na shukar kiya, na shukar kiya.
Tu ne aur diya, deta hi gaya, deta hi gaya;
Moun mor liye daryaaon ke,
Maine hawa mein urna seekh liya (Maine hawa mein urna seekh liya)
Meri agli nazar sitaaron par (Meri agli nazar sitaron par)
Phhir bhi main tere saharon par'

This part however, fails to move me, because I for one realize and understand the nature of humanity to an extent. I know how ungrateful a creature man is. How hollow he really is inside. How man is always asking for more and more. He fools himself into thinking that this world is all there is and he can accomplish any task. He thinks he can be god. In that process, man fails to realize how wrong he is and leads the whole world to a state of destruction and anarchy. These words shouldnt shock you, or anyone else for that matter. Everyone knows that man is on a journey to find omnipotence. The belief, however, that man shall fail this quest, is held by only a few.

'Main zaat paat mein, oonch neech mein,
Aur firqon mein bata hua.
Jo sachayee ko jhutla de,
Dil aisi gard se atta hua.
Shikwa naheen jism ki mitti se,
Ke rooh bhi ab beqaaboo hai.
Tere hukam pe chalna ek taraf,
Tera naam bhi lena yaad naheen.
Kam se kam mujh ko lauta de (Kam se kam mujh ko lauta de)
Woh rooh aur jism ki jang jang.'

This particular stanza holds the most meaning. You realize the triviality of the caste systems around the world. It screams of the call for equality. It describes how man has inherently become so blind to the world's carnage and mass destruction, both physical and emotional, that he cannot make the distinction between right and wrong. The last two lines are nothing short of phenomenal in snapping man back to reality, making him realize how dead he is inside.

Gone are the days we had men of honor and some mission in life. Not a facade. Not some mission to be God. Though they were people I respect, they can in NO way be compared to one another or thought to be similar. They were very different people, fighting for very different reasons, seeing very different futures. Abraham (pbuh). Moses (pbuh). Mohammad (pbuh). Hitler. Jinnah. All we see are men fighting to marry men, and women fighting to marry women. All we see is the fight for control over oil. All we see is the hypocrisy of the world when they can protest The DaVinci Code's release on the basis of blasphemy and religious intolerance, yet find the protests of Muslims on the obnoxious caricatures of their prophet, as distasteful. All we see is the facade of democracy and freedom. You dont see THEM anymore. You dont see the inner strife THEY went through. You dont see any changes in the world around you simply because though fighting on the outside, man is dead inside. He no longer has a conscience.

Fanaa

2006-05-31T13:46:00.000-07:00

Tu khoobsoorat hai, yeh tujhe hai maloom,
Bheegi aankhon mein hai yeh bheega bheega pyaar;
Aa tujhe rang doon is bahaar ke mausam mein,
Main woh hoon, jis ka tujhe sadion se intizaar tha.

Aa gaya hoon main ab jo teri zindagi mein,
Is pyaar ki qasm hai jaan-e-man meri;
Fanaa ho jaoon ga, jo bhula diya tum ne,
Aakhir iss pal ka hi to sadion se intizaar tha.

Patience

2006-02-12T11:55:00.000-08:00

D'you remember our last fight?
Or did you forget what it was about?
I dont know why, but
Was there room for doubt?

D'you not miss that night?
Or did you forget what it meant to me?
Tangled in the telephone wire
As if your body was draped around me.

D'you not know the feeling?
Or did you mock me again?
When we talked of Mahiwaal, and how;
Love found both in the end?

D'you not sway with emotion?
Or are you numb inside?
The endless love singes my heart; yet I,
Do not long for the pain to subside.

D'you always put on this mask?
Or is it your heart is of stone?
Are my wishes plain pointless?
What of the dreams that you have shown?

D'you pretend to even know my name?
Or is it that we can never be?
My love, all I can say is, at the end of the day;
Save the last dance for me.

Drug

2006-01-28T12:22:00.000-08:00

This one saved MY life too.

'Fuck the poets of the past, my friends.
There are no beautiful suicides,
Just cold corpses with shit in their pants
And the end of the gifts.'

Hasraton Ke Daagh

2006-01-28T11:13:00.000-08:00

Jo Hum Ne Daastan - Lata Mangeshkar

Jo hum ne daastaan apni sunayee
Aap kyun roye?
Tabahi to hamaray dil pe ayee
Aap kyun roye?
...
Ghamon ki aag hum ne khud lagayee
Aap kyun roye?
...
Qayamat aap ke ashkon ne dhayee
Aap kyun roye?
...
Fanaa ho jaye gi saari khudai
Aap kyun roye?

Akhiyon Ko Rehne De - Lata Mangeshkar

Akhiyon ko rehne de
Akhiyon ke aas paas
Door se dil ki
Bujhti rahay pyaas

Dard zamanay mein
Kam naheen miltay
Sab ko mohabbat ke
Gham naheen miltay

Tootnay walay dil
Hotay hain kuchh khaas
Door se dil ki
Bujhti rahay pyaas

Reh gayee duniya mein
Naam ki khushiyan
Tere mere kis
Kaam ki khushiyan?

Saari umar hum ko
Rehna hai yun udaas
Door se dil ki
Bujhti rahay pyaas

Ek Tu Na Mila - Lata Mangeshkar

Ek tu na mila
Saari duniya milay bhi to kya hai?
Mera dil na khila
Saari baghiya khilay bhi to kya hai?

Dharti hoon main
Aur tu gagan
Ho ga kahan
Tera mera milan?
Laakh pehre yahan
Pyaar dil mein palay bhi to kya hai?

Taqdeer ki main
Koi bhool hoon
Daali se bichhra
Hua phool hoon
Saath tera naheen
Sang duniya chalay bhi to kya hai?

Ghairon Pe Karam - Lata Mangeshkar

Ghairon pe karam
Apnon pe sitam
Ae jaan-e-wafa
Yeh zulm na kar
Ghairon pe karam
Apnon pe sitam
Ae jaan-e-wafa
Yeh zulm na kar
Rehne bhi de ab thora sa bharam

Hum chahnay walay hain tere
Yun hum ko jalana theek naheen
Mehfil mein tamasha ban jayen
Iss darja ka taana theek naheen
Mar jayenge humm , mit jayenge hum
Ae jaan-e-wafa yeh zulm na kar
Ghairon pe karam, apnon pe sitam

Ghairon ke thiraktay shaanay par
Yeh haath gawaara kaise karein?
Har baaat gawaara hai lekin
Yeh baat gawaara kaise karein?
Tujh ko teri bedardi ki kasm
Ae jaan-e-wafa yeh zulm na kar
Ghairon pe karam, apnon pe sitam

Hum bhi thay tere manzoor-e-nazar
Jee chahay tu ab iqraar na kar
Sau teer chala seenay par
Begaanon se mil kar waar na kar
Be-maut kaheen mar jayen na hum
Ae jaan-e-wafa yeh zulm na kar
Ghairon pe karam, apnon pe sitam

Aap Ki Nazron - Lata Mangeshkar

Aap ki nazron ne samjha
Pyaar ke qaabil mujhe
Dil ki ae dharkan thehr ja
Mil gayee manzil mujhe

Jee humein manzoor hai
Aap ka yeh faisla
Keh rahi hai har nazar
Banda-parvar shukriya
Hass ke apni zindagi mein
Kar liya shaamil mujhe
Dil ki ae dharkan thehr jaa
Mil gayee manzil mujhe

Aap ki manzil hoon main
Meri manzil aap hain
Kyun main toofaan se daroon?
Mera saahil aap hain
Koi toofaanon se keh de
Mil gaya saahil mujhe
Dil ki ae dharkan thehr jaa
Mil gayee manzil mujhe

Barh gayeen dil par mere
Aap ki parchhayaan
Har taraf bajnay lageen
Sainkaron shehnayaan
Do jahan ki aaj khushiyan
Ho gayeen haasil mujhe

These lyrics have more meaning to me than any english song iv ever heard. And no one in the world understands that but me and kishmish, on a sad evening.

Yearning

2005-12-26T10:07:00.000-08:00

Is that you calling from afar?
Or is it just your memory?
I miss the sound of your voice
So bad, it burns inside of me.

Is that your voice on the air?
Or is it just the wind?
I miss your soothing comfort
So bad, that I scream for it.

Is that you dancing over there?
Or is it a mirage that I see?
I miss the look on your face
So bad, that I curse my eyes.

Is that you smiling at me?
Or is it for someone else?
I miss that adorable beaming face
So bad, that I smile no more.

Is that you sitting there alone?
Or is it that you wait for me?
I miss our conversations, my love
So bad, that I just cant breathe.

Intizaar

2005-12-17T13:37:00.000-08:00

Tumhein roka is kashmakash ne,
Dil ne kya tha kaha?
Ishq se labrez yeh qalb hamatan-gosh hai,
Labon se tu ne kyun na kaha?

Jin ke saharay ishq tha seekha,
Un se kya tha kaha?
Batao muhabbat kya hai; janab,
Khaaksaar se kyun na kaha?

Kaantay jab chubbhay thay tumhein,
Phoolon se kya tha kaha?
Aansoo aye thay jab teri aankhon mein,
Ponchney ko hum se kyun na kaha?

Aaj ke jab tera intizaar hai, mehboob,
Pehli shab tu ne kya tha kaha?
Naheen thay hum gar wafadar,
Yeh gila hum se kyun na kaha?

Taa qayamat rahay gi meri mohabbat,
Tujh se main kya tha kaha?
Mere khwabon ki taabeer hai tu,
Iss se pehle yeh tujh se kyun na kaha?

Oorhni

2005-12-14T13:02:00.000-08:00

I picture you wearing only that scarf,
Made of naught but moonlight;
Is it material that guards our bodies?
Or is it just man's mere sight?

I picture you wearing a frown,
Do not look upon me, it proclaims.
Can I really see what you fear?
Or is your heart just full of shame?

I picture you wearing a smile,
A lie it is, so clear;
Isn't it too easy today, my love?
Changing a curse to a sneer?

I picture you wearing black,
Suffered, you surely have not;
Weren't you the benefactor of pain, my love?
Wasn't hatred all that I got?

I picture you wearing the crown,
Feast on the cadaver of your only love;
How many more shall you devour?
Should man stop beleiving in true love?

I picture you wearing nothing,
Born in a brothel, was it not you?
Where are all the admirers now, my love?
Save the beasts who lust for you?

Janam Din

2005-09-19T11:46:00.000-07:00

Today, I commemorate the sacrifices
That I myself have made to date;
You may call me selfish or just full of myself,
But is that what I'm here to debate?

Today, I remember those days
When we were all relaxed and carefree;
You may have forgotten, my friends,
But those memories are to death, with me.

Today, I acknowledge your presence
Yes, you've been there, I know;
You were there, true, but
Only for you to show.

Today, I realize the truth
To which I've been blind to;
You, who put the blindfold on my eyes,
Shall, InshAllah, be blinded once too.

Today, I put an end to this life
Of being helpful and caring;
You will resent your actions later,
For I have paid gravely for my forebearing.

Today, I stand on the edge
Of understanding and denial;
You may use me no more, my "friends",
I am no more a child.

Happy Birthday to Me.
Thanks Usmani, Mahnoor, Masood, Aun, Mustapha, Aneeb, Hasan, Saif, Zahra, Nazuk, Feeza, Murty, Umar...loved it.

Baghaavat

2005-08-31T09:22:00.000-07:00

You cannot say you dont love me,
No, you just can't.

You cannot raise your hand and strike me,
Even if you must, you just cant.

You cannot say that you dont need me,
Dont deny it, because you cant.

You cannot supress whats inside me,
You may try, but you cant.

You cannot kill my emotions,
Logic won't work here, it cant.

You cannot keep it a secret,
I'll not let it be one, I cant.

You cannot hide forever,
Behind your liqour, you just cant.

You cannot face the angels,
They shun you, so you cant.

You cannot stop me from praying,
I pray for you, so you cant.

You cannot be all pretentious,
And expect me not to be, you cant.

You cannot be all-knowing,
No man can know all; you cant!

You cannot really be who you are,
I have faith in you still, you cant.

You cannot expect me to love you still,
Trust me, you cant.

You cannot begin to imagine,
My life with you, you cant.

You cannot even dream of,
Making me feel happy, you just cant.

You cannot hug or kiss,
To subdue the pain, you cant.

You cannot even say soft words,
To distract me from it, you cant.

You cannot be what you should be,
Its what I hope for, but you cant.

You cannot even appreciate,
The respect that you command, you cant.

You cannot even remember,
My first walk or word, you cant.

You cannot ignore my pleading,
Listen! You cant.

You cannot overlook my care for you,
Then again, you just cant.

You cannot take me for granted, though,
I wont allow it, so you cant.

You cannot bear what is within me,
Take a hint, dad, you just cant.

Moi?

2005-07-13T11:19:00.000-07:00

Disorder Rating

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Life

2005-07-12T14:24:00.000-07:00

Life's a charade
Questions that need answering
Answers...that are omnipresent
But which of them need answering?

Life's a game
Players it has many
Plays are also plenty
But playing isn't the role of many.

Life's a stage
Mere puppets we are
God's the puppeteer
Without strings, nothing more, we are.

Life's a bitch
And then we die
Tell me, my friend...
Why do we, live a lie?

Affection

2005-06-26T13:05:00.000-07:00

The sparkle in your eyes
The twitch of your lips
The touch of your hand
That bend of the hips

The softness of your hijaab
The crudeness of your style
The smell of your hair
That flowed like the Nile

The panic in your voice
The passion in your kiss
The wetness of your tongue
That face that I miss

Its not just this, believe me
To you, theres a lot more.
I love you more than you know
I just hope you know that for sure.

Hope

2005-06-23T13:58:00.000-07:00

Is this insanity? Are we crazy?
Have you any clue how I feel inside?
The passion burns forever more;
And the pain does not subside.

Can we again gaze upon the stars?
And forget about kith or kin?
Let us share our passion
Like once we shared skin

Or should I give up and move on?
Is it there is no hope at all?
Cold they have all become,
Summer, Spring, Winter and Fall.

Will you dazzle me once more?
With your ever-lasting smile?
Perhaps it shall, for now,
Make the wait worthwhile.

Do you even wonder?
Or ever think where I may be?
Dark corridors are all I tread now;
Wondering of who, but thee.

So is love omnipresent?
Does it not ever end?
I guess, so is sorrow then;
Which is all there is at the end.

Sitam

2005-05-07T08:20:00.000-07:00

Woh pyaar to na paa sakay
Jis ke liye taraptay thay hum
Tu ne haath chhura liya to kya?
Bhool gaye mujhe tere sitam?

Jab milay thay pehli baar
Tere nainon mein kho gaye thay hum
Teri awaaz ko sanson mein bharnay lagay
Tere kehkahay hi dhar gaye woh sitam.

Samajh mein na aye yeh baat
Kis raah par chal rahay thay hum
Dar-ba-dar us andheray mein
Sehtay rahay tere sitam.

Dost tha main? Ya woh bhi naheen?
Teri nazron mein kya reh gaye thay hum?
Pyaar naheen to naa sahi,
Dhaye mujh pe kyun woh sitam?

Aur aaj, jabke hum sadaa rahein ge judaa
Waqt...yeh din aur raat...kaise guzarein ge hum?
Pyaar ke siwa diya kya tha tujhe main ne?
Badlay mein jis ke milay tere sitam.

Apne hi saye mein chhup ke
Tere bin bhi jeena seekh lein ge hum;
Par dua hai meri tujhe phhir bhi
Jaise bhi thay tere sitam.

Khush?

2005-03-19T12:21:00.000-08:00

Kho bhi jaaoon tere nainon mein
Meri chahat to adhoori rahay gi
Jab bhi tanhayee ka aalam ho
Awaaz teri phhir goonj utthay gi

Gird-o-nawah ki is bheer mein
Meri rooh tujhe pukarti hai
Kis mor pe khara hai tu?
Teri manzil tujhe pukarti hai

Aankhein num to hain, dil hai afsurda
Teri yaad mein kitna hum peetay hain
Tu kya jaanay, kaise hum roz
Ghut ghut kar yeh zindagi jeetay hain

Tujh se baat karne ka
Mauqa bhi to naheen
Teri ek jhalak hi hai mere paas
Aur kuchh bhi to naheen

Waah Re Kebab Teri Kismat

2005-01-21T07:46:00.000-08:00

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results

Warmth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Intellect	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	22%
Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Liveliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Dutifulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Social Assertiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Sensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	86%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Abstractness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Introversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Openmindedness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Independence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Perfectionism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	82%
Tension	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%

personality tests by similarminds.com

Aao Twist Karein

2005-01-04T11:09:00.000-08:00

Tum saamne hi rehna
Waheen baithi raho
Jahan se tumharay yeh geelay hont
Dekhte hue meri palkein jam jayen

Samay tham jaye
Duniya bhi ruknay lagay
Teri un aankhon mein
Mere yeh nain kho jayen

Tum haso to sahi
Muskurao, aur bas kuchh na kaho
Aankhon ki yeh baatein
Kaheen lab na keh jayen

Zulfein hain jo teri
Meri puri duniya samaytay hain
Aao mere saath, ke hum un
Mohabbat ki vaadiyon mein gum jayen

Aur aazmayesh na lena
Tera apna hi hoon, ab sitam chhoro bhi
Hasrat meri hai yehi
Ek doosray mein bas sama jayen...

Deception

2004-12-30T09:18:00.000-08:00

Here is a poem I wrote in February 2004, published in the 'Aitchisonion 2004'.

She enters
Her sublte walk goes unnoticed
An act of desperation follows,
Yet, no response.

She exits
The incoming wind speaks of her scent
Heads turn
Eyes follow

Hushed Voices
The job done...she disappears
But she wants more...
There, Then.

She's no different...
No better...
Just a fake smile,
On a face with many faces

Her charisma fails to empower me
Her beauty fails to attract
My lust for another
Shields me from her sadistic charm

Till she returns
Hears wait...bated breaths...
Thoughts and fantasies linger
For that deceptive, illusory face.

Bas Tum

2004-12-24T01:07:00.000-08:00

Teri un zulfon ki khusbu
Abhi bhi taaza hai meri bahon mein
Jo aansoo tum ne bahaye mere kandhay par
Numi kar gaye hain meri bhi aankhon mein

Ghari ghari raah dekhta hoon main teri
Aaati naheen hai tu, nakhray dikhati hai
Adaayen hi hain teri jo mujhe bhaa jaati hain
Aankhon aankhon mein bol tu kya batati hai?

Tere siwa mera hai kaun?
Jo sunay meri baatein, meri sab faryaadein?
Rab janay kya ho ga gar aisa ho...
Reh jayen mere paas teri sirf yaadein.

Fatwa

2004-12-23T01:01:00.000-08:00

Kehtay hain log, yeh sab najayez hai
Nazrein tak apni neechi rakho,
Sar ko dhanpo, Tasbeeh karo,
Kya logon par bhi naheen yeh jayez hai?

Main naheen hoon tyaar, yeh mannay ko
Asool hain tou sab ke liye hain
Main, tum, ham sab; yeh qaum
Bolo ho tum sab tyaar inhein yakdam mannay ko?

Agar pyar dena naheen jantay,
Tou Pyaar lene ki bhi ummeed na rakho
Yehi tou bazaar-e-duniyia hai
Ab tak jeevan mein tum itna naheen jantay?

Saaz hon ge makrooh tumhein,
Par suntay to tum bhi ho woh naghme
Chahay hon deen ke yaa ishq ke,
Kya aisi hi be-hissi hai tumhein?

Aray jao keh do un sab say
Jo kehte hain deen ke hain rakhwalay
Mohabbat-e-deen dar asal kya hoti hai
Ab poochein ge hum un say?

Dil mein abhi soz hai baaqi
Ishq Mohammad se, mere rab se bhi hai taaza
Bolo ab ae buzdilon...
Hawas aur zaat ke siwa tum mein hai kuchh baaqi?

Waqayee?

2004-12-22T10:51:00.000-08:00

Here's a list of things passed on from many bloggers. Copy it and put the things you've done in bold and add another thing at the end.

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sunrise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight (food be much delicious and powerful commodity to waste)
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger (ok, an acquaintance, but for all intents and purposes, a stranger)
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath/shower
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Bench-pressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theatre
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to know about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Sword fought for the honor of a woman.
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97 Lied
97. (the real 97) Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas.
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night-stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Moulin Rouge
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congressperson
133. Packed up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion, or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of 100mph or faster?
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery.
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: take, landing, during
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for his or her actions
175. Gone back to school (ok, yeah if visiting counts...)
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author whom you missed in school, and read him/ her
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch (tried to anyway)
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you.
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Lost your Best Friend for reasons of death
201: Fallen in love over the internet
202: Sung in a Barbers' Shop Quartet
203: Eaten a live animal
204: Been able to communicate in a language you barely learnt barely three days earlier. (twaday kinnay bacchay hain? :D :D) (ok, not been able to communicate well, but communicate nonetheless!)
205: Memorized words from all Disney movies like Aladdin, Lionking etc; furthmore, dialogues from Friends, Smallville and Star Trek (main bohat faarigh hoon)

It's fun.

Maaf Karo; Naheen Chahiye

2004-12-21T13:13:00.000-08:00

Aadat se majboor hoon main
Peena main naheen chahta
Gham hai ke bas jaata naheen
Is saroor mein main khona naheen chahta.

Ban baitha hoon mein jogi
Pyar, Ishq yaa Muhabbat? Kya hoon main chahta?
Sab ek hi rog ke hain naam
Is haal mein bhes bhi badalna naheen chahta

Aansoo aatay hain par jam jatay hain
Inhein bahana main naheen chahta
Uss ke un jhootay waadon ke liye
Aankhein num karna mein naheen chahta.

Konay mein para hoon,
Uthna naheen chahta
Par apne khuda se bhi pooch lo,
Tujh jaise bewafa ke liye mein jaan dena naheen chahta.

Socha tha do gi tum mera saath
Tumhara wahan ho ke bhi na hona main naheen chahta
Aakhir iss botal ke gird hi aya na mera haath
Tumhare woh thanday haath ab main naheen chahta.

Rehne bhi do ab, chhoro tum
Dhokay mein phhir main aana naheen chahta
Jao chun lo tum woh phool, woh gulab,
Kaanton bhari yeh mohabbat main naheen chahta.

Uncanny

2004-12-19T11:10:00.000-08:00

Just reminded me of dad.

Purwa

2004-12-18T13:38:00.000-08:00

dua kar raha hoon
faryaad kar raha hoon
meri mohabbat ke yeh geet
yeh chalti hawaein tujh tak le jayen

intizaar kar raha hoon
teri raah tak raha hoon
ke tu aye, aur le mujhe apni baahon mein, aur
yeh chalti hawaein humein un taaron ke paas le jayen

ab mein tarap raha hoon
teri yaad mein jal raha hoon
tu na aya hai ab tak, aur mujhe dar hai ke
yeh chalti hawaein tumhe aur dur na le jayen

Aaghosh

2004-12-14T11:13:00.000-08:00

nafrat ki us aandhi se mein lar na saka hoon,
uss himmat ka nazariya bekaar hi raha
zillat ki is zindagi se ab mein thak chuka hoon
apno mein reh ke bhi mein tanha hi raha.

kya karoon...kahan jaoon?
raste hain bohat, himmat bhi hai kaafi,
par ujar jaye ga yeh ghar,
rokney ke liye mujhe yahi hai bas kaafi

kya ho ga uss ka?
kahan jaye gi woh?
jis ne guzaaray hain aansooon ke pachees saal
iss zamanay mein kis ke paas jaye gi woh?

kya hai uss ke paas?
kya hai uss ka samaan?
do joray, kuchh aansoo,
tootay khwaab, or adhooray armaan?

kaise chhor doon mein uss ka saath,
na doon ussay mein apna pyaar
kya yeh hai uss ki mohabbat ka ajar?
uss ke liye kuchh bhi karne ko hoon mein tayaar

par woh kaun hai?
ek aurat? bas? aur kuchh naheen?
uss ki maamta ki hai koi qeemat?
maan sirf mera khuda hai, aur kuchh bhi naheen.

I love you mom! I hope you know that.

Hail Hitler!

2004-12-12T10:38:00.000-08:00

A wallpaper I made.

Allah Jaane

2004-12-08T13:28:00.000-08:00

Chalay thay ek din,
Saath le ke woh aas;
Jaane kis ki oar,
Jaane kis ke paas.

Sehmay huey dil se,
Nikli na koi aah;
Jaane kyun yeh aalam,
Jaane kyun yeh neechi nigah.

Qadam uthtay thay,
Thamtay thay baar baar,
Jaane kis ka dar,
Jaane kis ka pyar.

Kya tha yeh maut ka intizar?
Ya thi zindagi ki talash?
Jaane kyun tha mein khush,
Jaane kyun tha niraash.

Mur ke dekha to kuch apna na paya,
Sab ajab sa tha, jaise woh mohabbat bhari raatein;
Jaane kaisa rog,
Jaane kaisi baatein.

Mohabbat Ka Takaaza

2004-12-07T13:43:00.000-08:00

Tum door jaa rahi thi,
Mein bhi door jaa raha tha;
Mohabbat ki talash mein,
Sehraaoon mein tap raha tha.

Khuda se bola mein ne,
Yeh aarzoo hai meri;
Nigahein hamari mila de,
Kya shaan hai yeh teri.

Kya kya naheen kiya tha,
Uss ishq ke liye ham nein;
Faawwaron mein bhi phenke,
Choom ke sikkay ham nein.

Un sikkon ka sila tou,
Iss janam na mil paye ga;
Lagta to yahi hai meri jaan,
Tu mere janazay par hi aye ga.

Meri Bakwaas Suno

2004-12-06T11:34:00.000-08:00

Aao bacho, tumhe sunaoon bachpan ki ek kahani;
Ek tha bacha jis ka naam rhyme karta tha with paani.
We sent him off to boarding school;
Cuz tang karna was his addat purani -
Chala gya tou sab ne bola
Ab ayegi uss ko yaad apni naani.

Oh Hello

2004-12-02T10:07:00.000-08:00

Woh Bhi Kya Din Thay
Jab Hum Jin Thay
Ab Hum Deo Hain
Jinnon Ke Peo Hain!

Hahaha! I love myself.